32 weeks 6 days

Our appointment went well this morning at the MFCC. I've been getting a little nervous the last three or so days - I just feel different and I'm just more anxious. Probably all the pregnancy hormones ;) I haven't been much of a complainer or very emotional at all, or at least I don't think I have. I think Clint would say the same thing...however, the last few nights Its been harder on me for some reason - some reason being I'm just feeling super uncomfortable and more pain. I feel like I've been doing so well despite it all but now its all catching up with me - emotionally, physically, mentally. I'm ready to have these kiddos but in another way I think I'm getting scared too. Scared something might go wrong, about their health, bringing home THREE BABIES and dividing my attention among them. Its just a lot to take in now that we're so close to meeting the girls and our little Clinton! We're super excited don't get me wrong but the fear of the unknown is creeping in lately.

I think of others with chronic pain - for many there's no light at the end of the tunnel (elderly persons or those with disease ect). It helps me put things in perspective. There's a little girl named Tara in the Milwaukee triplet group I've joined and she recently found out she has cancer. One day she was fine, the next her parents took her in due to bowel obstruction and swollen belly and they were told after testing/scans she had a tumor in her abdomen. I pray for this sweet little girl and her family (she's only 5 years old). Tara is having to go through rounds of chemo with possible radiation. I've never met this little trooper but she is such a courageous girl from what I read and hear. If you would remember Tara and her family in your prayers. Anyway, my point is that we should all try to keep our personal trials in perspective and remember how fortunate we are and be thankful for the things we do have such as our health. List this as one of the lessons I feel I'm learning in life. Check.

Back to our appointment this morning...
Two weeks ago Baby A was 4 lbs. while B and C were 3 lbs. 12 oz. Here were their weights today:
A 4 lbs. 7 oz.
B 4 lbs. 9 oz.
C 4 lbs. 1 oz.

Looks like our little guy needs to catch up to his sisters! Every weight though is a general estimate based on their measurements so you never know how precise they are-even though they should be pretty darn close. I just try not to get my hopes up for 4 pound babies. I realize if we had them today they could very well come out weighing 3 pounds-something-ounces each. All along I've always said I just want them to be at least 3 pounds and 4 would be great! So, I'm counting my blessings that they are growing and seem to be right at or around 4 each!

The perinatologist didn't have a single concern today (as usual). She was thrilled we were past the 32 week mark and headed in the right direction. I asked about steroid injections (for lung/surfactant development) but she said there was really no point to give them now. I felt like I was nearly begging her to give them to me - it can't hurt, right? It will only help them. Other high risk/moms of multiples what do you think? I need to do some more reading on it but I just thought what do we have to loose? I would be so mad at myself if we didn't do it then they needed to be on oxygen for weeks and had breathing complications. Thanks for your thoughts and advice.

I'm hungry and not thinking clearly right now...that boost is wearing off! ha. Anyway I feel like I'm rambling so I'll stop and write again when I'm not so foggy. This is just the beginning isn't it (of a foggy mind that is)?